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I was thinking yesterday to writte something... i didn't know why, i had my head on the clouds... lost in my own fucked up world, like always. I was eating my Oreos... yes, i was eating something i am not supossed to eat because of the fucking "Fit Life".... and i dont give a fuck, and suddendly i felt the need to say a lot of things, to scream, to pour away all the twisted up things i feel about you... but i can't... you never understand it... but at least i tried. You are someone i would really love to stab until you die and all your blood is drained into the ground, i will enjoy it, you make me happy and miserable at the same time, how is that even possible? I wan to hug you, i wan to love you and hate you, i want to scream and hit you in the face... You make me anger, make my brain explode for overthinking about you all the time, i want to leave sometimes... but i dont... because i fucking love you, and you dont fucking get it! Always worring about things that don...

I was looking in the mirror, that sad and fading reflection hiding from my eyes. it looks sick, tired, angry and sad, like a reckless child needed of love and understanding. It was just me, trying to figure it out what to do with my life, trying to know what happened to her, to find the scars so i can heal it... To break that ice wall growing bigger in my heart, but... I like how it makes me feel, secure and safe from you, I know I won't be hurt if I can't feel your warming love, there's will always be a glass separating us, so you can suffer while I watch, so you can laugh while I slowly die. And this, my love, its madness.

I tried to build a friendship... All i did was ruin it because of my lack of social skills, i fuking suck at this shit, i dont even know why i even start it at the first place. I guess i was curious, and sincerely, i actually loved to have someone to talk to, to have someone that was actually making me laugh despite my dark humor, but damn! its sofocating... I was so caught up in this that i didn't see how hard its to maintain it. So... slowly i tried to make it confortable, give it all my trust and secrets to see if that could work, but it did not. Now i feel exposed... because of my own fucking fault. I should know it, i had the chances to see it but i dissmised it, now i am here, so full of things to say to nobody. Maybe i am from mars, maybe yes, i am a marcian, someone strange because i can't fit with the common sense of people... I hate to admit it. Once i tried, really hard to do it once... but these are some of the reasons i couldn't: -I can't do jokes -I don...

Once upon a time there was a little girl, she always was smiling, laughing, playing and looking at the sky in the night. She loved the stars, was always asking to her mother what were they doing so far away. Her moms always told her they were living with God, and that they were so happy to be with him that they shine of joy. The little girl believed it, and she smiled looking back to the big dark roof full of glistens. With the passing days, the little girl was smiling no more, she felt sick. Her mommy and daddy took her to the Hospital, the doctor examined her, and talked to her parents. She woke up in a room, full of cold metal and white sheets. His mommy was smiling at her, and gave her a warm hug. Days still passing, the little girl ask when they are returning home, daddy said soon. She made new friends, they were sleeping on beds too, she noticed they were leaving, one by one, she asked to her mom if they were going home, she said they were going to the sky, to be with the shining...

I can't get somebody's attention... I want it... I want to kiss his lips, bite a little bit his ear... I want him to love me, to make me feel the only one he desires. To make me fall in love with him, just for that night. Crush our hearts until it hurts, fucking on and on until lose consciousness in lust. So, when the sun breaks the sky you will be leaving, and i won't miss you, you were just a guy for a night and i was just another girl to conquer. I am ok with it, i don't have to forgive and i wont forget. You gave me what i wanted... that's good enough for me. But thats just a delusion, all lies if i can't get to you.

"Do not fall in love with people like me, i will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. i will destroy you in the most beautiful way posible. And when i leave, you will finally understand why storms are named after people"